Honey dont let them ever drive you to that...there are people out here who care.  I was lucky to be able to leave last year and i still have close friends int that office and I worry about them.  I contacted Steve Mucasso last fall about the problems in gastonia because I could see how much worse things got after I left.  Several of us knew this could happen, but never expeected this carrier of doing it.  There are others in there who are alot less stable that would have been capable of this, and you know everyone else there knows that too. Dont let them bully you into anything.  They cannot deny letting you go to EAP...on the clock if need be.  We're here.  Turn to the ones who know what its like before you would do anything harmful.